I meant to post this last Tuesday, but it's been a long, sad week.
My cousin, Nicole passed away Thursday, Feb. 24th. She was only 29 years old, and leaves behind a husband and four young children, ages 5 to 12. She had had breast cancer, and had a double masectomy to get rid of it. She was in remission for a while, but the cancer came back - agressively and eventually spread to her whole body. She fell a few weeks ago and collapsed her lung. Because the cancer had spread so far, she was unable to recover. Although her death wasn't unexpected, the whole process happened rather fast and has left me and my family rather upset. She was her mothers only child, and I can't even begin to understand what my Aunt is going through right now. It's a hard situation to deal with all around. Her funeral was Tuesday morning, hence the no posting.
On top of all that, my whole family has been sick for a week. We had strep and me and my son also got impetigo. How thrilling for us all. We spent a week in the house, doing the best we could for my cousin and her family.
So, that's what's been going on. Needless to say, I have not been paying attention to what I eat. if anything, I've been indulging in comfort food. I'll see you all again soon, hopefully in a better mood.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
What If They Were Fat
Calista Flockheart
Christina Aguilera
Kate Hudson
Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen
Alyssa Milano
Makes you feel just a little bit better, doesn't it?
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
You're Not The Boss Of Me Now
I woke up this morning, thinking about food.
Well, to be fair, I fell asleep last night, thinking about food. As usual. And like I said, I woke up this morning - thinking,
"Oh boy, what's in my fridge...I'm starving." (and no, I'm not really starving. I'm to fat to be starving to death, trust me.) Anyway, I raced downstairs to find me some food and the most amazing thing happened.
I stopped and actually thought about what I was going to eat.
And that, my friends - is a miracle. Not a small one either.
I read a post a few days ago at Waisting Time. One of her readers asked her a question - basically, 'what are your goals?' It was a good question, and to be honest - I don't really have any goals other than "Be skinny, dammit!" But one of her responses was this:
I want to control food instead of food controlling me.
And I thought - Woah. Seriously. Not only does food control me, it whips me and beats me and owns my every action. Really - everything I do is based on food. Like, if I have money and want to go out, my brain automatically starts listing my favorite restaurants and what their menus are. What foods haven't I been able to eat lately and which are my favorite ones. I don't think about movies, or bookstores or even clothes shopping. I think about food first.
Or, if I'm depressed I run to the fridge and see what goodies it may be hiding. And I look forward to Holiday feasts with a fervor that is not completely normal.
It only gets worse. I will go to the kitchen, grab the easiest thing to eat (for example..a bag of candy, chips, cookies...get the picture?) and eat a whole bag/sleeve/carton. Then I look down and see an empty bag/box in my hand - it feels like I'm coming out of a small coma - and I think to myself - "Holy crap. Did I really just eat that??" I don't even remember. It's scary.
And eating just one. Or two. Or five of anything is a joke in my house. That's one of the main dieting tips, right? Eat just a few? HA. If I eat one, it usually means I'm going to eat them all. The whole bag. The whole carton. The whole box. There is absolutely zero amount of self control going on here.
So, is food my boss. Yup. But that's got to change. Fortunately for me, I actually thought about it this morning before I ate anything. So I'm going to try and plan out my eating for the whole day. Maybe tattoo it on my forehead. Or my butt - there's more room there.
Anyway, today I start controlling food. I'm going to fire food as my boss. Or technically, I guess I quit - since you can't fire a boss. Hmm, not sure how that works since I've never been a boss...but I'm the boss now! Of food! And I fire it! Wait. I need some food...
Oh crap. Well, I guess I'm just going to start thinking about what I eat and being more careful. No more food marathons at midnight and no more scarfing before thinking.
So now it's time to go make my breakfast (2 over medium eggs on wheat toast and cottage cheese) and be healthy today. About time too, because I'm starving....
Well, to be fair, I fell asleep last night, thinking about food. As usual. And like I said, I woke up this morning - thinking,
"Oh boy, what's in my fridge...I'm starving." (and no, I'm not really starving. I'm to fat to be starving to death, trust me.) Anyway, I raced downstairs to find me some food and the most amazing thing happened.
I stopped and actually thought about what I was going to eat.
And that, my friends - is a miracle. Not a small one either.
I read a post a few days ago at Waisting Time. One of her readers asked her a question - basically, 'what are your goals?' It was a good question, and to be honest - I don't really have any goals other than "Be skinny, dammit!" But one of her responses was this:
I want to control food instead of food controlling me.
And I thought - Woah. Seriously. Not only does food control me, it whips me and beats me and owns my every action. Really - everything I do is based on food. Like, if I have money and want to go out, my brain automatically starts listing my favorite restaurants and what their menus are. What foods haven't I been able to eat lately and which are my favorite ones. I don't think about movies, or bookstores or even clothes shopping. I think about food first.
Or, if I'm depressed I run to the fridge and see what goodies it may be hiding. And I look forward to Holiday feasts with a fervor that is not completely normal.
It only gets worse. I will go to the kitchen, grab the easiest thing to eat (for example..a bag of candy, chips, cookies...get the picture?) and eat a whole bag/sleeve/carton. Then I look down and see an empty bag/box in my hand - it feels like I'm coming out of a small coma - and I think to myself - "Holy crap. Did I really just eat that??" I don't even remember. It's scary.
And eating just one. Or two. Or five of anything is a joke in my house. That's one of the main dieting tips, right? Eat just a few? HA. If I eat one, it usually means I'm going to eat them all. The whole bag. The whole carton. The whole box. There is absolutely zero amount of self control going on here.
So, is food my boss. Yup. But that's got to change. Fortunately for me, I actually thought about it this morning before I ate anything. So I'm going to try and plan out my eating for the whole day. Maybe tattoo it on my forehead. Or my butt - there's more room there.
Anyway, today I start controlling food. I'm going to fire food as my boss. Or technically, I guess I quit - since you can't fire a boss. Hmm, not sure how that works since I've never been a boss...but I'm the boss now! Of food! And I fire it! Wait. I need some food...
Oh crap. Well, I guess I'm just going to start thinking about what I eat and being more careful. No more food marathons at midnight and no more scarfing before thinking.
So now it's time to go make my breakfast (2 over medium eggs on wheat toast and cottage cheese) and be healthy today. About time too, because I'm starving....
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Catching Up
Huh. Been a while.
Between the holidays, babysitting and my all important video gaming, I've been to busy for blogging. But I'm trying to force myself back to some semi-normal habits.
Such as...cleaning the house. Or...playing with my son. Or...taking down the christmas tree. Yeah, that's still up. I've been uber lazy. It's sad.
I've been pretty depressed lately. It's something I struggle with on a regular basis, and it usually hit me pretty hard around this time. Mostly because I miss Christmas, and partly because it's so damn dark outside all the time. This year, it's because I'm broke and I'm waiting for our college/tax/tap money. Then we'll be rolling in the dough and I can take a little vacation/road trip to boost my spirits. Looking forward to that!
Until then, I've just gotta stick around the house andplay my video games clean the house.
Between the holidays, babysitting and my all important video gaming, I've been to busy for blogging. But I'm trying to force myself back to some semi-normal habits.
Such as...cleaning the house. Or...playing with my son. Or...taking down the christmas tree. Yeah, that's still up. I've been uber lazy. It's sad.
I've been pretty depressed lately. It's something I struggle with on a regular basis, and it usually hit me pretty hard around this time. Mostly because I miss Christmas, and partly because it's so damn dark outside all the time. This year, it's because I'm broke and I'm waiting for our college/tax/tap money. Then we'll be rolling in the dough and I can take a little vacation/road trip to boost my spirits. Looking forward to that!
Until then, I've just gotta stick around the house and
On Sleep, The Lack Thereof, and being a Good Girl.
I always have the best ideas for a post.
In the middle of the night.
I'll be half asleep, and pop awake with a gem of a post idea. I will tell myself to remember it, repeat it to myself 15 times, and then promptly forget about it as soon as I fall back asleep. When I wake up in the morning - I'm left with this vague feeling that I did something awesome yesterday, but I just can't quite grasp what it was.
And when I sit down to the keyboard and try to post something - I draw a huge fat blank. Usually I give up and write nothing. (Hence my month - (months?) - long absences)
But, I'm trying to post regularly, and I'm trying to get back on track.
Back on track. Hah. If I could find a way to type out 'snort and chuckle' on the computer, I would.
It's not that I don't try, I really do. I went out a few days ago for a food run, and got myself the Good Girl Subway Sub.
(i.e. Roast chicken on wheat, no cheese, all green veggies, hold the mayo and substitute mustard please.)
And then yesterday, I go out with my sister and manage to scarf 3 Jr. bacons and a large Chili with cheese.Yum! I mean, Bad Flabby McGee, BAD. Not to mention I can't seem to get near a gym. Although - to be fair - I'm sure there's an anti fat chick force field around the whole thing, repelling us chubbies by the dozens.
(I was looking for a picture of a cheeseburger - but they all made me hungry. So I stopped torturing myself.)
Still. I can't give up. I'd like to, but I can't. So I'm going to try again. Right now. I went shopping for all my Good Girl foods and I'm currently starving. I forgot to eat again.
In the middle of the night.
I'll be half asleep, and pop awake with a gem of a post idea. I will tell myself to remember it, repeat it to myself 15 times, and then promptly forget about it as soon as I fall back asleep. When I wake up in the morning - I'm left with this vague feeling that I did something awesome yesterday, but I just can't quite grasp what it was.
And when I sit down to the keyboard and try to post something - I draw a huge fat blank. Usually I give up and write nothing. (Hence my month - (months?) - long absences)
But, I'm trying to post regularly, and I'm trying to get back on track.
Back on track. Hah. If I could find a way to type out 'snort and chuckle' on the computer, I would.
It's not that I don't try, I really do. I went out a few days ago for a food run, and got myself the Good Girl Subway Sub.
And then yesterday, I go out with my sister and manage to scarf 3 Jr. bacons and a large Chili with cheese.
(I was looking for a picture of a cheeseburger - but they all made me hungry. So I stopped torturing myself.)
Still. I can't give up. I'd like to, but I can't. So I'm going to try again. Right now. I went shopping for all my Good Girl foods and I'm currently starving. I forgot to eat again.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Back Again
So, looking back at my blog - I apparently fell off the face of the earth. I don't know why I do that, just disappear for months on end. I guess my only excuse is lack of inspiration. I always feel like every thing I write should be witty and intelligent, and I don't always feel witty or intelligent. But I digress.
I woke up this morning at 5am, and after snarfing 4 scrambled eggs and 4 pieces of toast, I found a list of successful weight loss blogs on yahoo. I paused for a moment and thought "Holy Crap. I used to have a weight loss blog. Wonder what happened to it? Is it still there, do people still love me?" Lo and behold here I am, with a flash of inspiration to boot. Whoda thunkit.
Where am I at? Well, I'm not at the gym, cuz I'm all Flabby McGee again with a whopping 319 pounds. I make myself sad. But I have decided to stop whining and moaning about it all and suck it up. I may mess up over and over (and over and over) but I'm gonna pick myself back up one more time and work on the whole getting healthy thing.
Well, here I am. Trying. Again. And in typical Flabby fashion, we'll just have to see how this all works out. Resetting the weight counter, and getting off my duff now. See ya later.
I woke up this morning at 5am, and after snarfing 4 scrambled eggs and 4 pieces of toast, I found a list of successful weight loss blogs on yahoo. I paused for a moment and thought "Holy Crap. I used to have a weight loss blog. Wonder what happened to it? Is it still there, do people still love me?" Lo and behold here I am, with a flash of inspiration to boot. Whoda thunkit.
Where am I at? Well, I'm not at the gym, cuz I'm all Flabby McGee again with a whopping 319 pounds. I make myself sad. But I have decided to stop whining and moaning about it all and suck it up. I may mess up over and over (and over and over) but I'm gonna pick myself back up one more time and work on the whole getting healthy thing.
Well, here I am. Trying. Again. And in typical Flabby fashion, we'll just have to see how this all works out. Resetting the weight counter, and getting off my duff now. See ya later.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Zombie Stuff Tribute
I love Zombies. I have this weird fascination with all things Zombie. So, because it's soon Halloween and an appropriate time for it, I thought I'd list my fave Zombie Stuff.
Why Zombies? I don't know. I have this fascination with the world ending and everyone having to survive. I mean, what would it be like to have to grab a bag and run? Travelling from place to place, finding the other survivors. I guess I'm more of a survivalist enthusiast more then anything, but I still like my Zombies.
So, Zombie things I like -
Zombie Book:
Eh, some people like Max Brooks. He wrote the Zombie Survival Guide, and World War Z. it's more of a diary style type writing, and I'm not a huge fan of that. I was in Barnes &Noble and found a highly amusing zombie book, written by Jesse Petersen. Totally awesome, I loved it. it's hard to find a good zombie book. They're all usually depressing, or over written. This was neither. Witty, funny, awesome story. Which I hear is going to be a series. Woot!
Zombie Comic:
This thing gets it's own spot because, technically - it's not a book. It's a comic. I'm not a huge fan of the Marvel Zombies. I don't don't like to think of Wolverine as a zombie. Especially since I named my son after Wolverine, so maybe there's some negative connotations there. Anyway, I've read the black and white graphic novel versions, up to number 12. They're awesome. The perfect depiction of life after Zombies. I love that it's a series, so I can follow these people. Personally, I hope they don't get to reconstructed and fortified, because I love me a good zombie scare and chase. Which brings me to my next selection,
Zombie TV:
All I have to say is, it's about time they put Zombies on TV. I mean, it's nice to have a movie about them - how it happened, the outbreak, the survivors, the rescue. But what happens after the rescue? How do they continue to survive? I want to know -- and hopefully this series lives up to it's expectations and delivers a solid continuing zombie storyline. Unfortunately, I no longer have cable, so I can't make this a big Halloween Night Event, like me and my family wanted. I am very upset about that, but I'm broke. So - here's to hoping they post it online. I'm sure I can find crappy copies on you tube for a few days if I absolutely have to.
Zombie Game:
This one was hard, but I've managed to pick one. I like the Dead Rising series, absolutely love the Left 4 Dead games - but if I have to pick one, I'm picking the original Resident Evil. There was nothing so freaky (back in the day...) than opening the doors in the mansion not know what was behind it. I was truly disappointed that the first Resident Evil movie wasn't IN the mansion. I loved that game. It was creepy - anyone remember that loooong creepy hallway with all the pictures on the walls, and dead leaves on the ground? That was back in the day when games were about gaming, not graphics.
Zombie Movie:
Again, a hard choice. But when it comes right down to it, I seem to gravitate more towards the modern zombie. An escape is an escape only if something is chasing you. It's hard to be scared of slow zombies groaning "blargh" while you skip and dodge around them. Maybe it's just my generation. Anyway, I absolutely adore 28 Days Later. What a movie. The waking up alone, walking the deserted streets of London in hospital scrubs...epic. I love the whole plot, the story, the degeneration of humanity...love it all. Hmm...possibly a good Halloween substitute, since I have no cable......
I have to throw in a second favorite, only because I've seen it at least 5 times since it came out. Me and my husband watch it all the time. Zombieland. This movie fits more in the zom-rom-com genre than anything else, but it still gets my 2 thumbs up. Or more. I mean. Bill Murray, zombie rules, Woody Harrelson with guns, zombie kill of the week? Come on! Fantastic stuff!!! It even trumped Shaun of The Dead - if only by the slightest margin.
So, there you have it. My favorite Zombie things. For some fun, I'm leaving this most hilarious little video for you to watch. Enjoy!
Why Zombies? I don't know. I have this fascination with the world ending and everyone having to survive. I mean, what would it be like to have to grab a bag and run? Travelling from place to place, finding the other survivors. I guess I'm more of a survivalist enthusiast more then anything, but I still like my Zombies.
So, Zombie things I like -
Zombie Book:
Eh, some people like Max Brooks. He wrote the Zombie Survival Guide, and World War Z. it's more of a diary style type writing, and I'm not a huge fan of that. I was in Barnes &Noble and found a highly amusing zombie book, written by Jesse Petersen. Totally awesome, I loved it. it's hard to find a good zombie book. They're all usually depressing, or over written. This was neither. Witty, funny, awesome story. Which I hear is going to be a series. Woot!
Zombie Comic:
This thing gets it's own spot because, technically - it's not a book. It's a comic. I'm not a huge fan of the Marvel Zombies. I don't don't like to think of Wolverine as a zombie. Especially since I named my son after Wolverine, so maybe there's some negative connotations there. Anyway, I've read the black and white graphic novel versions, up to number 12. They're awesome. The perfect depiction of life after Zombies. I love that it's a series, so I can follow these people. Personally, I hope they don't get to reconstructed and fortified, because I love me a good zombie scare and chase. Which brings me to my next selection,
Zombie TV:
All I have to say is, it's about time they put Zombies on TV. I mean, it's nice to have a movie about them - how it happened, the outbreak, the survivors, the rescue. But what happens after the rescue? How do they continue to survive? I want to know -- and hopefully this series lives up to it's expectations and delivers a solid continuing zombie storyline. Unfortunately, I no longer have cable, so I can't make this a big Halloween Night Event, like me and my family wanted. I am very upset about that, but I'm broke. So - here's to hoping they post it online. I'm sure I can find crappy copies on you tube for a few days if I absolutely have to.
Zombie Game:
This one was hard, but I've managed to pick one. I like the Dead Rising series, absolutely love the Left 4 Dead games - but if I have to pick one, I'm picking the original Resident Evil. There was nothing so freaky (back in the day...) than opening the doors in the mansion not know what was behind it. I was truly disappointed that the first Resident Evil movie wasn't IN the mansion. I loved that game. It was creepy - anyone remember that loooong creepy hallway with all the pictures on the walls, and dead leaves on the ground? That was back in the day when games were about gaming, not graphics.
Zombie Movie:
Again, a hard choice. But when it comes right down to it, I seem to gravitate more towards the modern zombie. An escape is an escape only if something is chasing you. It's hard to be scared of slow zombies groaning "blargh" while you skip and dodge around them. Maybe it's just my generation. Anyway, I absolutely adore 28 Days Later. What a movie. The waking up alone, walking the deserted streets of London in hospital scrubs...epic. I love the whole plot, the story, the degeneration of humanity...love it all. Hmm...possibly a good Halloween substitute, since I have no cable......
I have to throw in a second favorite, only because I've seen it at least 5 times since it came out. Me and my husband watch it all the time. Zombieland. This movie fits more in the zom-rom-com genre than anything else, but it still gets my 2 thumbs up. Or more. I mean. Bill Murray, zombie rules, Woody Harrelson with guns, zombie kill of the week? Come on! Fantastic stuff!!! It even trumped Shaun of The Dead - if only by the slightest margin.
So, there you have it. My favorite Zombie things. For some fun, I'm leaving this most hilarious little video for you to watch. Enjoy!
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